I've never felt so tainted as a person in my life. This period is a bad one. I'm not the person I want to be. At this point, all I can think of is the suffering. I can't care for anyone else. I turned down Mirabel's offer to volunteer for trybe at Ai Tong School. Usually, I would be all up for it. Today, I was thinking to myself "would they really want someone as tainted as me to guild these kids" I think not. No, I'm not the person I want to be now. I have to focus all my energies to get there. Until then, I'm on my own. Then again, I always was.

Talking to Edith and Joel was able to lift my spirits a little though!